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What kind of the person I am?Sorry to hurt someone again, though I didn't mean to.
Everyone just will be fine, I always talking to myselt that way,but how about me?
These days I did really felt greater than ever, but still not enough to cover my deep hole in heart...
But I will be fine, to be the one left all of the tears cried for you.
And then I would fly away, smile at you in the sky and never come to you again.
Never.
Thank you for all of you who care me a lot and warm up my heart these days.
No matter who I am, it's truth that there would be someone not making me cry anymore.
bright moonlight~JA's courses just over tonight, I had soooooooo many feelings, but my brain remained blank.
A little tired, maybe.
And it's again another ending, like the previous ones.
All of us had ever said that let's kept in touch in the future,
but few of us have continued to bring it forward.
I didn' t like the situation in fact and never want to accept,
but it just happen.
Not because we didn't have wonderful time with each other,
but all of us had to continue the 'normal life' before we met together.
feel so bad
absolutely!! I stayed at where my heart brokenI still can't accept that I still at the same place where I want to leave it far far far behind.
But it's true.
Someone just tell me you will be fine.
I know it.But when?
It has been one and a half year.
All these time I struggled myself again and again and tried all my way to be stronger enough to face it,
and even tell to myself that I have really changed to be a new one.
I did really want to be a new one.
Be stronger,be more rational,be more passionate,or even colder enough to avoid heart break.
But I just always want to leave Tianjin,leave Canton,or maybe leave China ,where I would be meet him
again and sad again.
And I just deemed it the best way to be a new one.
In fact, the same emotional moment would happend until the love ends.
.
star showerstar shower,
one,two,three,four and five...
but no wishes for each one.
I exicited just like the first time I watched the snow flied onto my head,
only a child at that time,
excited,or even naive.
but I love the one myself at that time~
If I made a wish,I just want to be the one with puerility forever,if probable.
RelationshipForgive my ever-run tear...
WeiLan's "My love my fate",EBs' goodbye speeches,
Wang's rational,Shi's failure,
all those hugs,all those photoes,
reminds me a lot a lot a lot that totally help burning out my tears.
It reminds me the drama "HuanCheng" played just before the detachment of "CLASS 5",
I cried when we all came to the stage to do curtain call;
It reminds me the breakup, the goodbye,the damnful rational;
also ,the farewell,the goodbye and tear scenes I have seen whenever I go back home by train...
I know my emotionality,my lack of rational,my vulnerable, my easyfall tears.
And it's why I try to keep a certain distance from other people,as I grown up.
I really know when I make a close relationship with others,
it's hard for me to face the departure, the farewell, the goodbye.
I always deem it ridiculous the "exagerated" tears when I watched the farewells at the station platform again and again,cause I want to tell myself that I have to be stronger, be more rational and calm.
I don't want to stay unchanged and tissued my tears once and once again and told to myself that it would be the last silly crying for me.
I have suffered it and I won't want another heart broken.
a not far nor close distance,
I have ever believed that it would work,
but God just kidding me again.
to be stronger just not a piece of cake for me.
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